In continuation to - http://abhishek-theunspokenwords.blogspot.in/2013/06/a-part-of-me-ii.html
A Girl's Diary:
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A Girl's Diary:
THE DAY I MET HIM
It was a cloudy morning yesterday and I had completed a month of stalking this guy. Yes, I was actually stalking him. I now knew all his basic routines, his favorite cigarettes, his only friend - scotch, places he usually went, people(well he had none) he dint talk to, basically everything. I wanted to talk to him for once. Just be friends with him for once but I had got no chance up till now. There was not a single way to get through him. He did not go to parties, he didn't attend any cultural activities, he did not have any friends, I had hardly seen him chatting on phone. So, the only option I got was to walk up straight to him and have a word. I knew this wasn't going to be easy but something in me believed that I know him somehow. I will tackle it. Something in me felt it was right. There was something so appealing about him that was pulling me towards it. He was like gravity, I had no control over myself.
I went upto his lone hangout zone yesterday. He usually sat amidst the rocks near the graveyard in the cantonment area with a bottle of Chivas and a packet of Benson. Nothing else around him. He just used to drink, smoke and stare at the forests around him. He was half a bottle down when I reached there. Dressed in a black shirt and blue jeans, he looked hot. The usual stubble, red shot eyes and that blank face could actually get me an orgasm anyday.
Hesitantly with a belief in my heart, I walked towards him.
Hesitantly with a belief in my heart, I walked towards him.
"Hi" I said.
He gave me a weird look and then gulped another sip of his drink.
"Why are you here?" He asked in his low baritone voice.
"You know me?" I asked as I was a bit taken aback by his question.
"Do you think I don't get to know who's stalking me?" He replied looking straight into my eyes.
I felt embarrassed. This guy was smart. "Tell me what do you want?" He asked taking a drag and started staring at those forests again.
I felt embarrassed. This guy was smart. "Tell me what do you want?" He asked taking a drag and started staring at those forests again.
"I...um, want nothing. May I sit?" I blabbered.
"Neither do I own this area nor do I own your ass. Feel free." He replied rudely. Very rudely.
We both sat there in silence. He kept drinking and smoking. He was completely non-existent to my being as I lovingly observed him. His eyes tickled my heart every now and then. He was pretty much like the dark tunnel which led to a path which wasn't travelled in a long while. I was ready to take this path.
The clouds were roaring above and the rain gods would be coming down any moment.
I finally breathed a sigh and tried initiating a conversation. "It might rain any moment. I think we should leave."
He replied, "Neither do you own this place nor my ass, so, I'll prefer to sit."
I was a bit pinched by this rude response again. He sensed it and apologized immediately.
"I am sorry. I don't really know how to talk anymore. It'd be better if you stay away from me. It's been a while..." and he sighed and stopped speaking. His eyes were pretty generous when he spoke.
It started raining at that very moment. He looked above as the raindrops drenched us.
After about half an hour of noticing him, I spoke, looking straight into his eyes, "The fire burning inside you cannot be calmed down by the water."
He looked a bit taken aback by my words.
"Hmm, till the time I don't get to know what'll work, I'll prefer the Chivas along with the raindrops."
"Why are you this way?" I asked. The conversation was a li'l smoother now. I had somewhere struck a chord inside him.
"Why should I tell you?" He replied staring towards the dark sky.
"Maybe because the water you need to calm that fire comes through me." I don't know how those words escaped my mouth. Maybe his sexy eyes had done the trick along with the Chivas I sipped in.
His face was still expression less. He just smiled a bit. The smile which was totally enveloped in sadness. Depression.
"Remember that time when your mum told you not to get attracted to the bad things in life? Just recall that and leave. You're trying to take the path to your own destruction."
"Let me be the judge, boy!" I replied instantly.
He just stared at me. And after a couple of minutes looked away.
"Okay fine. At-least tell me one thing about you that no one knows about you currently. The people around you, your life, your friends, your past. Anything would do." I flashed my cutest possible expression to get that out of him.
"Only because you took so much pain - The people, be it anyone, think that I am cold and I don't feel anything. I am rude and stone-hearted but that's not the thing. I do feel emotions and trust me my eyes still well up with tears and my heart still has its own ups and downs. Its just that I have stopped showing that to this world. I am a loner. No friends, no lovers, no enemies. Just a small amount of haters and I am contented with that. At-least I have someone." And he flashes a sad smile and gets up to leave. I wish I could hug him at that very moment. His eyes just wanted love and nothing else.
"Should I drop you somewhere?" He asked in a courteous tone.
"I wanted to know something I dint knew already. K'nags would do by the way." I replied as I walked past him.
To be continued...
He replied, "Neither do you own this place nor my ass, so, I'll prefer to sit."
I was a bit pinched by this rude response again. He sensed it and apologized immediately.
"I am sorry. I don't really know how to talk anymore. It'd be better if you stay away from me. It's been a while..." and he sighed and stopped speaking. His eyes were pretty generous when he spoke.
It started raining at that very moment. He looked above as the raindrops drenched us.
After about half an hour of noticing him, I spoke, looking straight into his eyes, "The fire burning inside you cannot be calmed down by the water."
He looked a bit taken aback by my words.
"Hmm, till the time I don't get to know what'll work, I'll prefer the Chivas along with the raindrops."
"Why are you this way?" I asked. The conversation was a li'l smoother now. I had somewhere struck a chord inside him.
"Why should I tell you?" He replied staring towards the dark sky.
"Maybe because the water you need to calm that fire comes through me." I don't know how those words escaped my mouth. Maybe his sexy eyes had done the trick along with the Chivas I sipped in.
His face was still expression less. He just smiled a bit. The smile which was totally enveloped in sadness. Depression.
"Remember that time when your mum told you not to get attracted to the bad things in life? Just recall that and leave. You're trying to take the path to your own destruction."
"Let me be the judge, boy!" I replied instantly.
He just stared at me. And after a couple of minutes looked away.
"Okay fine. At-least tell me one thing about you that no one knows about you currently. The people around you, your life, your friends, your past. Anything would do." I flashed my cutest possible expression to get that out of him.
"Only because you took so much pain - The people, be it anyone, think that I am cold and I don't feel anything. I am rude and stone-hearted but that's not the thing. I do feel emotions and trust me my eyes still well up with tears and my heart still has its own ups and downs. Its just that I have stopped showing that to this world. I am a loner. No friends, no lovers, no enemies. Just a small amount of haters and I am contented with that. At-least I have someone." And he flashes a sad smile and gets up to leave. I wish I could hug him at that very moment. His eyes just wanted love and nothing else.
"Should I drop you somewhere?" He asked in a courteous tone.
"I wanted to know something I dint knew already. K'nags would do by the way." I replied as I walked past him.
To be continued...
